live as if you'll die tomorrow

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 00:48:07 GMT

[04 Jun 2005|08:18pm]
trickamerica

Body: Body: Ok guys, this truly is freaky,
my cell literally rang as soon as I read
the last word of this email!!!!!

I am taking the bait -
what do I have to lose right?

Hope it works!

Supposedly The Phone Will Ring
Right After You Do This.

Just read the little stories and
think of a wish as you scroll all
the way to the bottom. There is
a message there - then make your
wish.

No attachment on this one.

Stories

I'm 13 years old, and I wished
that my dad would come home from
the army, because he'd been having
problems with his heart and right
leg. It was 2:53 p.m . When I made
my wish. At 3:07 p.m. (14 minutes
later), the doorbell rang, and
there my Dad was, luggage and all!!

I'm Katie and I'm 20 and I've been
having trouble in my job and on the
verge of quitting. I made a simple
wish that my boss would get a new
job. That was at 1:35 and at 2:55
there was an announcement that he
was promoted and was leaving for
another city. Believe me...this
really works!!!

My name is Ann and I am 45 years
of age. I had always been single
and had been hoping to get into a
nice, loving relationship for many
years. While kind of daydreaming
(and right after receiving this email)
I wished that a quality person would
finally come into my life. That was at
9:10 AM on a Tuesday. At 9:55 AM
a FedEx delivery man came into my
office.He was cute, polite and
could not stop smiling at me. He
started coming back almost everyday
(even without packages) and asked me
out a week later. We married 6
months later and now have been
happily married for 2 years.

What a great email it was!!

Just scroll down to the end, but
while you do, think of a wish.
Make your wish when you have completed
scrolling. Whatever age you are, is the
number of minutes it will take for your
wish to come true. ex.you are 25 years
old, it will take 25 minutes for your wish
to come true).

However, if you don't send this to
people in 5 minutes, you will have bad
luck for years!!

Go for it!!!

SCROLL DOWN!!!!

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STOP!!!

Congratulations!!! Your wish will
now come true in your age minutes.

Now follow this carefully....it
can be very rewarding!!!!

If you repost this within the next 5 min.
something major that you've been wanting
will happen.

Message: This is scary!

The phone will ring right after
you do this

Caught in the safety of routine

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 13:58:28 GMT

im at school...enough said

So homecoming was sooo fun, great memories that will last a lifetime...

I'll be posting pictures... hopefully this weekend

I miss my friends in Long Beach.... it's killing me

Getting my license today... i could honestly care less

Got in a HUGE fight with my grandma... cried for 20 minutes b4 school... comforted by Adam

I'm so down...

in class argh

Wed, 13 Oct 2004 14:04:01 GMT

HOMECOMING IN 3 DAYS!!!!!!!!!

ok im sooo excited that homecoming is in 3 days but im stressing BIG time omg! this is what the rest of my week looks like:

Wed (today gender switch day)- Work 5-830, come home get my shit together for Britts house, pedicure, eyebrow wax, make toga

Thursday (TOGA DAY)- Be at school till 1030 decorating the ENTIRE school, then at 2am going to south and painting the pump house gold and brown, Go around to peoples houses decorating their cars... sleeping at brittanys but not much sleeping involved!

Friday (SPIRIT DAY)- Spending 5-7th period decorating the gym for the pep rally, pep rally, afterschool decorating the football locker room for the big game, going to ACF (all city field) at 5 to decorate the locker room there for our boys, then decorating the bleachers, then at 530 tailgate party for my school spending it with adams family and mine, then the football game at 7 when we MURDER Manual, then after PARTIES, then going homme to sleeeep

Saturday- be at school at 10 o'clock to help decorate, leave at 11 pick up boutineers, check into hotel and put alcohol and after homecoming clothes in it, then go home and get ready, adam and his whole family coming at 5 to take pictures, then everyone meets at abbys house at 630 (all 46 of us) party bus at 7 then dinner at 730 then the dance, after the dance DRUNK IT UP!!!!

In school

Fri, 01 Oct 2004 13:55:52 GMT

im in Marketing right now and I am protesting, I don't want to work on my DECA event, BLEH... well I've been doing alot of thinking and evaluating of myself and I've come to find that they're some things that I wish would change. I wish that I had more understanding friends, well I don't quite know if understanding is the exact word that I want to use but I just wish that people wouldn't get so mad at me. I understand that I haven't been that greatest friend to some (if YOU"RE reading this you know its about YOU) and I am truly sorry for that, it's just so hard to balance school, work, and all of my extra curriculars, and have a social life. I really am busy and it's just not an excuse. I wake up at 5 every morning leave my house at 630 in school until 245 then if I'm not going to work I'm staying at school until either 9 or 5 I am president of PEP Club, in DECA, Student COuncil, the 06Student Rep of LEAF and Booster, so it's really crazy and I just wish that some people would understand. I do not want to loose the wonderful loving caring BEST friends that I have, and I fear that I am. I always thought that if I moved away that my friendships with certain people would last forever, just for that fact that we're so close and been through so much already that our relationships should stand up to alot of hardships. I LOVE YOU guys and i hope that you know, I may not be the best at showing it, but I do and always will. NO matter if you dont' understand and don't want to deal with the fact that Im not the greatest at keeping in touch, I will always love you because you have a place in my heart that will never be lost....

ON a lighter note... Homecoming is in 15 days and IM SOOOOOOOO excited, they're 40 people in my group and we're getting a double decker bus!!! I think that we're going to the HardRock Cafe or Dave and Busters... The boys are planning it so I'm not sure whats going on. Adam and I are going together, we had been "dating" for almost a month and just a week ago he asked me out! So yaya! And we're getting about 9 or 10 hotel rooms at the Embassy so it's gonna be ALOT of fun! I looooove my dress I'll make sure to POST pictures.... I get my license in 3 weeks and I already have a car so I'm reallly happy about that... all is going well....

Time to study for my psychology test, oh goody... xoxo<3

shake your stuff

Wed, 25 Aug 2004 00:28:20 GMT

Well I started school already, yay for MEGHAN! boO... well actually it's reeally not that bad, but it's not like going to school back in the LBC nothing will ever top that with my one and only GIRLS! who i miss so much! Anywho it's been fun, I went camping and to a party this weekend which was fun stuff... Ive just been busy with school and actually trying to get to bed at a decent hour because i have to wake up at 530 :( but other then that everything is all good... I really like my classes and the people in them... BUT I DO MISS SUMMER... and i'm so pissed that i didn't get to go to CALI everytime i tried it just got shot down... i think that man is out to ruin me haha ;) I find it necessary to actually get all dressed up for school, you know actually putting make up on and doing something with my hair... I didn't do that when i went to wilson so i'm not sure why i feel the need to do it now... hmm who cares. I'm going up to Aspen for the Jack Johnson concert i'm reallly excited about that. Then in sept. isabel and i are going to see Matchbook ROmance and then i think it's october that we're seeing Story of the year... Homecoming is in October i'm really excited about that i'm not sure who i'm going with yet i mean i still have a month but still these things need to be thought through.... Jesse wont go with me he says "i don't do those things" how fucking lame whatever he can just look at all the pictures of how sexy i looked then he'll be kicking himself in the ASS... We already decided that we're not coming home after homecoming. my parent's are gonna get us a hotel and we're just gonna crash their! WOOWOO... getting a limo and going out to a nice dinner. oohh and i'm getting such a nice dress!!!!! I'll post pictures for sure.. i know i always say that but hey i'm a busy girl and i like never ever go on the internet... soo yeah... anywho wow am i bored i feel like i'm talking to myself hah prolly cuz i am! I still have homework, need to wash my hair, clean my room, and go work out ugh why can't it be summer... It's cool though because we're upper classmen oohh yaya i don't feel any different. people are stupid for saying being a jr is cool it really doesn't matter... i get a car in 2 months yay uhh what else is new... MY NAME IS RITZ AND I"M PART OF THE 4 CRACKERS hahahaha love u girls! i miss leslie soo much she is soo freaking busy with school ahhhh well so am i we're for sure hanging out this weekend prolly going to a party because thats all i ever do how sad for me... wow im tired i think i'm about to pass out on my keyboard... alrighty i'm outy if u need me u know how to reach me... peace <3

So long sweet summer...

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 19:46:33 GMT

Ok well the summer is gone and I'm sooooooo sad! I didn't even get to do like half of the things that i wanted to. ESPECIALLY going to CALIFORNIA! SOrry guys i miss you soo much! xoxo I start school on Tuesday which really freaking sucks! Ok well this is all what I did this summer

ALOT OF PARTIES
Got a tattoo
Warped Tour
Incubus
COPS
trying new things
Died my hair blonde/brown/black (pix later)
Too much shopping
Working
Family moved out to the CO
Tanning
Couple parties at casa de Meghan
Clubbing
Baseball Games

uhh wow i just realized that last summer was ALOT more crazy then this one... Knew i wouldn't be able to top it with out my girls! :) cold.tired.hungry.confused... im O-U-T-

drop me a letta sometime anyone... comment if ya need my address!

so kiss me hard...

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 20:44:07 GMT

I went to warped Tour yesterday and it was soo much fun. We got a BIG group together to go and we all got ready over at Jesse's house. Isabel and Taryn went over there first at like 1030 and i get this phone call "MEGHAN WE HAVE VIP PASSES AND ONE FOR YOU!" So i get over there and they take me to this guy and he's all like yeah you're cute here ya go and he gave me a VIP wrist band! SHIT I WAS STOKED! i got to go back stage and hang out where all the RVs were and tour buses. WE drank all the beer we wanted for free and it was amazing! We went and hung out in first to last tour bus for a little while. I had soooooooooo much fun! I was really excited too because this year at warped tour alot of the bands were my some of my very favorites so it was really cool watching them play so close then meeting them. Most of the bands are reallly nice too, we met Yellow Card too, they're cool but they kind of have a big head now, but whatever. I saw Motion City Soundtrack, Mae, Yellow Card, NFG, Flogging Molly, AntiFlag, The Early NOvember, Taking Back Sunday, and much more. THen we all went back to Jesse's house and watched movies and passed the fuck out! Then we're going to Incubus on the 26th and camping on saturday and Sphinx Park on sunday (it's this park that has a waterfall and rivers and shit.) Then hopefully Jesse and i should be coming out to Long Beach in August it just sucks because i have to start school on the 17 and im realllly pissed! So we shall see if we dont go before i start school i have the 19th and 20th off so we'll prolly go then or something, but im coming no matter what! i miss everyone in the LB too much!
SO my dad and his family is now living with us its not bad, im really happy to have them out here. We made rooms and stuff down in the basement i moved down there to have more privacy from my grandmother who i love to death but can not stand. And besides im never home anyway i practicully live over at Jesse house with Isabel and now Taryn lives with them but only for a little bit. I have alot of fun over there he has 3 other room mates Joey, Jon, and Justin its the J-unit :) Its freaking constant party over there though i would say there is a party going on 6 out of 7 days in the week and the only reason that its not every day is because we dont usually party on sunday because the liquor stores are closed and you can only by 3-2 beer at the grocery store. the CO is odd.... but yeah my days have there ups and downs. I have been feeling really odd lately like one day im in a realllllllllly good mood and the next every little thing makes me cry. But other then that things are going well i get my car in october, and i think im buying it from Jesse because he works at a Honda, BMW, Mini Coop dealer ship.
OOOO i got a tattoo its a little plumeria (hawaiin flower) on my lower hip right above my cooter its soo cute its pink, and im getting another one next week sooooo excited! hmm whatelse...i cut my hair hah its nice and short now and im dying it with realllly bleached blone highlights with some red ones too its gonna look good.
When i get my computer working i'll post some pictures its just hard too because i dont have my computer up and running right now. But i have some good pictures... wow im sitting here in the llibrary i feel like a loooooooser... im out and i dont know when i'll post again! <3xoxo

Sun, 11 Jul 2004 02:27:58 GMT

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OK WOW so i havent updated this thing in FOREVER i guess because im NEVER online i just dont have time to sit here on the computer anymore. IM NEVER EVER home seriously its pretty crazy. First things first im over here with my giiiiiiiiirl ISABEL hah wata lossssssssser.... JJJKK anywho ive been really busy with work, partying and spending time with Jesse<3 Leslie got a 2004 KIA its pretty tiite we go everywhere now well its not like we didnt b4. i started handing out with Isabel again (obviously) umm my dad and his whole family are moving out here on Monday and im VERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY EXCITED! i can now have even MORE freedom which might not be a good thing ** he he he** ((evil laugh)) i have a boyfriend now his name is Jesse and he is really grrreat! Umm im dying my hair and cutting it short like to my shoulders and its gonna have BLLLLLLLLEACHED blonde highlights with red ones its gonna be verrry HOT! wow and OMG i bought the fucking cutest shoes from STEVE MADDEN yesterday oman oman i had a shoegasm! i know everyone wants to know all of this! umm wat else is knew oo i dont talk to my mom anymore because she is a PYSCHO fucking bitch oman wow she wants to take me to court hahah thats fucking hilariious! im getting a pomerian yaya! its gonna b my baby! even though i alreayd have one jesse says that his dog roco is my son hah yeah he has his own house so yeah things are going pretty well. Im going back to regular school in august no more homeschool bullshit! uhh wat else hmm im getting a honda in October and uhh thats about it... so yeah well kiids i gotta go get ready for a party 2niiiiight! i'll have lots and lots of pictures!!<3much love!!!!!

July 18- Warped Tour
July 26-Incubus
July 28-30- Jesse leaves me for Oregon :(
Around August 20ish-Jesse and i go to the LBC
August something-SCHOOL FUCK SCHOOL

<meghan

I never liked this apple much
It always seemed too big to touch
I can't remember how I found
My way before she came around

I tell everyone
I smile just because
I've got a city love
I found it in Lydia
And I can't remember
life before her name

>>>>She keeps a toothbrush at my place<<<<
As if I had the extra space
She steals my clothes to wear to work
I know her hairs are on my shirts

I tell everyone
I smile just because
I've got a city love
I found it in Lydia
And I can't remember life before
The day
She called up and came to me
Covered in rain
And dinnertime shadowing
And as her clothes spun, we spooned
And I knew I was through
When I said "I love you"

Friday evening, we've been drinking
2 AM, I swear I might propose
but we close the tab
split a cab
and call each other up when we get home
falling asleep to the sound of sirens
I've got a city love
I found it in Lydia

From the battery
To the gallery
It's the kind of thing you only see
In scented, glossy magazines

And I can't remember
life before her name<3xoxo

Fri, 04 Jun 2004 23:08:11 GMT

hey hey hey kiiids! its been a while since i updated this stupid thing, my computer got a virus so i only go online at my cousins house... anywho here is whats been going on

I started partying alot more i feel i might be getting a tad bit out of control so i think im gonna calm it dowm a little bit. I mean i love drinking and hanging with friends and thats all good but they fact that ive had to deal with COPS 3 times in a matter of a 2 months is ridiculous. dont get me wrong meg da keg will still b partying just not being stupid... gotta use what little brain i have ha ha ha

My grandma is in CALI becuase here mama is dieing which is really sad. my step mom is coming out to visit me... tattoo possibly? soooooo excited!

I had a party last night, what an good idea that was.. DRAMA not fun not fun at all.

Im dieing my hair back to blonde

I bought the cutest shit at abercrombie and im getting the CUTEST thing from victoria secrets when i get paid woowoo

ITS FUCKING SUMMER OMAN SOO GREAT

been car shopping woowoo

My skank left me, LESLIE is in Michigan until the 10th im very sad

plans for tonight...
*movie
*kegger
*kickback
*sleeping in a tent
*chillen with the girls
looking forward to it BIG time

well this has been fun im O-U-T like a light bulb haha wow im really hyper...

ooo and this journal is UGLY i need to change it

Sat, 01 May 2004 07:01:57 GMT

k well tonight was prettytt fun shauna fucking flipped holy fuckinga shit wowowa well fuck this fuckingal shit im druhnk shit picures 2morrow later
<3megh

i spill my heart to you <3

Fri, 30 Apr 2004 05:39:23 GMT

this weekend
Friday: school
Getting ready then Tyler is picking me up
TJ Baseball game (mb depending on the weather)
Partying with the coOLest kiids in the world ha ha ha
Come hOME AND SLEEEEEEEEp

Saturday:
TJ Baseball (again depending on the weather)
Getting ready for my concert with Les
Getting picked up by Derek and Alex
Getting food with Derek, Al and Leslie
THen BLINK 182, TAKING BACK SUNDAY, and CYPRESS HILL concert with LESLIE DEREK AND ALEX wOoWoO
COMING HOME AND SLEEEEEEEEEEEEPIng

Sunday:
Girls day maaaaaaaybe?
Or movie with the crew?
who knows

WHAT THE FUCK! ARGH! i always get what i want hahah TYLER IS A LOOOOOOOOOSER!

Hope everyone has a grrreat weekend! pictures on sunday! muuuah!

WELL its sleep time!
<3 megg!

Thu, 29 Apr 2004 05:44:38 GMT

i dont know whats wrong with me for some reason im soo depressed... well actually thats a lie and i know why im depressed and it fucking sucks! i hate this shit i hate it so much! OMGok wow... well today was funn went to my Grandma's house for a little bit (my other grandma for those of you who are wondering since i do live wit my grandma) and had lunch with my family. then we went shopping got a couple of shirts some shorts and some other shit. had to work tonight meh tiiired.. now im just gonna go get ready for bed throw all the shit off my bed onto the floor and pass out ... i love sleeping.. because when you sleep NOTHING or NO ONE else in the world matters! i dont know why i allow myself to get like this and let this happen. i hate my dad **again** i love him i hate him i love him i hate him i love him i hate i love him i hate i love him i hate him... story of my life... i wanna cry i really do i just wanna sit here with one of my best friends and cry FUCK why cant anyone be here why do i constantly have to be alone... i need some love guys BIG time <3

<3 megg

Friday: Hanging out with Shauna, Leslie and the boys uh u guys make me fucking MAD
Saturday: Blink 182 w/ Taking Back Sunday and Cypress Hill on Saturday with Leslie, Derek and Alex
Sunday: Chilaxin day with my girls (tanning, nails, lunch, movie much much needed girls i love u!)

Tue, 27 Apr 2004 06:34:04 GMT

shitty mood
going to shauna's 2morrow
Tj Soccer game/ watching boys varsity baseball practice
2 baseball games
Justins and MB Brandons
Shopping
Sleeping at shaunas
Staying up all night
Talking
Eating junk food
taking shauna to school
Work

wata night

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 20:30:36 GMT

ok so last night was alot of fun! at first i was like uh i dont even wanna go out 2night, like i sat around in my pjs all day i didnt get dressed until freaking 7 oclock wow im sucha lazy bitch. well anyway Colt, Nate, Tyler, Cade and Lauden came over and hung out with Me, Leslie and Shauna. it was pretty chill i guess i was still getting ready so they just sat and drank oh and watched SPORTS IN MY HOUSE pssh haha then Me, Leslie, and Shauna left with Tyler and them. WE first went to this movie theater parking lot which was reallllllly gay! We met up with Bret and Josh then went over to the parking lots behind the Hampden Heights Baseball fields. Which was soo much fun! Us girls got soo drunk, especially me holy shit i was soo gone! oman i was dancing in the rain learning how to be a stripper, from this male stripper that was there. he was too tite! haha i was just sitting there and running around (wen i got tired of sitting) but i wouldnt let go of the raspberry vodka and bottle of pepsi! i was being greeedy! heehee (evil laugh SHAUNA hahahah) it was mine all mine! i only shared because i wanted everyone to be DRUNK! but ya it was too chill! we gotta do it again guys! <3 o ya guys December 2005 meghan is gonna be a stripper haha and get a boob job hahah good times.

good quote of the night "haha meghan everytime i see you your skirts just keep getting shorter."

parking lots. driving. drinking. looking soo fucking HOT. being mean to people who talk shit about my KAT. more and more drinking. learning how to be a stripper. dancing in the rain. going pee in porta potties. running from dogs. "i want bigger boobs." getting carried around. skirts. my new friend the male stripper. taking pictures. sneeaking out. people sneaking in. DRUNK. good times girls! shauna and leslie

omg i just realized something while looking at this picture!! shit i was way drunk oman! ya by the way.. my girl LESLIE and i! <3

Shauna you are sucha little THEIF! hahah love you girl!

yeaaah this is my girl.. we both jOck eachother hahah love you!

ok yeah so im so fucking pissed that this picture did nt come out. it would have been sucha a cute one too!

sHauna and LesLie!! coming home after a long night of drinking and having a fucking good tiiime! hahah good times girls!

ok well i HAD to put a picture of my kitty! she's in my trucker hat! aww wata qt! and she is not a RAT! so fuck you guys! i hate you! :)

LoOk how ffreaking tiny she is! she just makes me soo happy! Like when im sad i just hold her or play with her and she makes me happy!

ok well now its time to go get ready! i need to stay away from the Internet it takes over my life haha im not being social right now either. i better go talk to shauna! ya i'll have alot more pictures after today tho!

<3Meg

ok so yeah im BORED

Sun, 25 Apr 2004 00:35:27 GMT

ok well im suppose to be cleaning my house and getting ready but NO im protesting... well not really i just dont know if i really wanna go out. we'll prolly just chill here who the fuck knows.. but call me anyone who has something fun to do and wants to chill... 303.884.5135

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waiting on an angel

Fri, 23 Apr 2004 22:15:19 GMT

well well well.. im not quite sure what to say, i have all these thoughts in my head but i dont quite know how to express them. things have been pretty crazy lately. i have soo many mixed emotions i just wish that i could straigten out everything in my life. i want so many things but i doubt i'll get them. people say "meghan you always get wat you want." well i really dont and i wish that i did. im not trying to throw myself a pity party well this is my journal so i guess i can.
i feel like i can never please anyone, like im not good enough.. and that is really a horrible feeling to feel. i feel like im not good enough for my mom or step dad. i dont even feel good enough for MY DAD! my dad used to be my best friend wat the fuck happened. i just wish that i could look into the future, just to reassure myself that everything would really be ok. but i cant and it fucking sucks. i tend to please people before i please myself, sometimes i just need to think of myself. yeah that might sound a little on the cocky side, but honestly everyone really needs to take time for themselves.

there is just so much going on rightnow , my dad is leaving 2morrow, i got a job, my kitten is a pain the ass, school, enrolling for next year, family drama, where am i gonna live next year, its just uh!!!! ok i know that everyone in california wants me to come home, and i do miss everyone sooo fucking much! and it really does hurt me to be away from you guys! i need everyone in CALIFORNIA! i know i know i truly am i cali girl. but ive started to make a home here, a home that i really enjoy. and honestly i dont want to go back and live with my step dad, im here becausse of him, why would i want to go back to that misery?! i just wish people would see it from my point of view instead of being all upset that i probably wont come home. and i also dont think that adam would want me to come home anyway.

thats another thing im stressing about, hurting my realllllllly good friends in california because im not coming home. but if we really are as good of friends as we claim to be, nothing would split us up. we'll be friends till the very very end! and i do honestly believe this. i have made some relationships with people that i know will last a life time. and i dont have to mention your name because you do know who you are. i love my friends more then anything andyou all know if you EVER NEEDED ANYTHING that i would be there, i will always be there for all of you! my life really wouldnt be complete if i didnt have some of my friends! and i thank god everyday that i have met such wonderful people. i have such good memories with all of you, i have enough to last a life time, and its really awesome too know that even though we all have so many memories we'll be making more for the rest of our lives.

fuck! im going through like a fucking emotional fucking rollercoaster right now! im happy one second, mad another and depressed. wat the fuck.. pms posssibly? haha wow alright i guess the point of this entry is just to get some things off my chest. i dont want my dad to leave im gonna miss him alot, i wish my mom would stop making me feel so fucking guilty, i wish my grandma would understand that im not a little girl anymore, i fucking wish that someone would just fucking NOTICE me, i wish that my grandma would stop calling me fat and telling me to work out i fuckjing weigh 110 lbs does she honestly want my eating disorders to come back, i wish someone would stop being so SHADY, i wish that i could trust every word my dad said, i wish i could STOP hurting someone, i wish more people would start be FORWARD, i just wish i could fucking make up my mind, i wish things were easier, i wish that i could stop being so meladramatic....

ok well im gonna go take a shower and clean my room. then get ready for a very interesting evening. maybe i'll have pictures later 2night posssssssibly....

i hope that everyone has a good weekend... leave me some comments to make me feel better!!! <3 you guys! xoxo

<3meeeg

soo much

Thu, 22 Apr 2004 05:30:39 GMT

well alot has happened lately or @ least it seems that way...

well ive been going over to Zack and Richaes like everynight since my party which would be saturday, its been alot of fun. we just smoke and have a good fucking time. no worries about nething just good friends having good times.

i got a new kitten today. my grandma came back from california and was like go get the blue bag out of the car. and it was a kitty caring case and it had my new baby in it! ANIKUH... i love her! she is pure breed persian cat, all white with hazel eyes! she is the shit....

i got a job @ hallmark again. i had my interview today and they gave me the job right on the spot... i start monday.

i work at the Nordstroms Trend Shower 2morrow yay 16$$ an hour hellz ya biiitch!

my dad is leaving early from here like on sunday wata ass hole... that fucking sucks im pretty fucking sad about that shit.. fuck all that shit as my dad would say....

going to the TJ varsity baseball game on friday then chillen with meghan and some people..getn drunk. YES

saturday is gonna be fucking great.. getn drunk.. YES shauna, leslie and brittney (ii think) gonna b crazy giirls <3 no curfew fuck ya! our house! ahh fucking great! <3 this is for "the book" diirty lil sluts....

my kittty and sarah

420 fuck yeaaaah

my little baby brother... LOGAN! <3

Tue, 20 Apr 2004 08:22:52 GMT

wow ok wel happppy 420 eveyone i alreayd started and its only 222 im soo stoned rigt now <3 fuck im out im hUNnnnnnnnnngry'

<3meg

my party

Sun, 18 Apr 2004 20:27:36 GMT

last night was sooo crazy i had soo many people in my house!! People just kept showing up and i didnt even know life half of them and i waslike umm ok WHO THE HELL ARE YOU! we had two kegs, vodka, long island ice tea, grits, chronic,vicodin, perkisets, people making out and shit it was grreat! lol
I got to meet alot of really chill people, so im pretty stoked, and i met alot more people from TJ so i'll know alot of people next year. i was pretty gone shiit! people really started to get out of control so i had to stand on my counter and tell everyone to fukcing calm down and they wouldnt listen to me. then a bunch of guys were like take it off baby and i was like eww fuck you ass holes get the fuck out of my house! hahah i was cussing at everyone i was like shut the fuck up now or everyone is going to have to leave. so then i started kicking people out and instead of leaving they just went to the bottom of my street and just started like wrestling and shit with eachother. one kid dropped a kid on my neighbors car and the alarm went off. then other kids were street racing in my neighborhood. so ya then i guess someone called the cops and ya so i had like 15 people left @ my house and we went downstairs and like tried to just keep quite. my dad was upstairs talking to them i was like HOLY SHIT my dad DOES NOT need to get into trouble! so ya the cops came down and they were really chill they didnt give anyone a ticket or anything. i had to stand next to them and they were like this is your house u get this undercontrol. they made people leave, then like 8 people stayed @ my house. so ya it was pretty chill.
Richea came over with Zack and there room mate and smoked out with my dad. then wen the cops came they fucking boned out, but they came back. we smoked with them for a little bit and once like we were sure the cops werent' gonna come back we started drinking more. and what the fuck someone took one of the shells! and like we didnt buy the kegs we only rented them. but whatever people are fucking gay! but ya that was my party!
im going to go see a movie with some people to night, and right now im chillen with Shauna! hahah SOAP! hahah
4-20 on TUESDAY! wOoWoO!!!!! im gonna have people come over and smoke! it'll be chill.

mOre sophia shiit!

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 06:47:45 GMT

ahh omg i have the very best friends in the whole world like u dont understand! like serioulsy im blessed for all of my girlfriends like they are soo awesome! i <3 them to death! ALL OF U! and u know who u are!

ROckERbEbE182: meghan it is G-E-N-I-U-S
HOwdy im MEg HAn: we have to make me look DROP DEAD FUCKING HOT!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah i know im not that dumb
HOwdy im MEg HAn: am i?
ROckERbEbE182: yes
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i just wanted to spell penis!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i like the wOrd penis!
ROckERbEbE182: ummm i know
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahahha
HOwdy im MEg HAn: ahh sophia i love that u will always love me for who i am no matter how dirty and perverted i am. and how DUMB
ROckERbEbE182: haahahahahhah yes this is sadly true
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahahah
HOwdy im MEg HAn: o well!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: wat can i say! im just a girl who knows what she wnats out of life,,, sex, alcohol, drugs, lesbian action with her Best friends and wait MORE SEX!
ROckERbEbE182: ummm too bad we havent had the lesbian action yet
ROckERbEbE182: i am waiting
ROckERbEbE182: i was talkin to mikael and he was like damn sophia u have hooked up with more gurls than me!
ROckERbEbE182: and then i told him i get to add u to the list
HOwdy im MEg HAn: well believe me the wait is worth it
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahahha wiat mikael who
ROckERbEbE182: my friend from blank label
HOwdy im MEg HAn: oo ok
ROckERbEbE182: man i member the days when me n tess had to dress ur lazy ass
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah and do my makeup
HOwdy im MEg HAn: and hair
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahahha
ROckERbEbE182: and we would pick out clothes, then hair, then makeup
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah OMG!
ROckERbEbE182: hopefuilly u can do it ur own now
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah yaa ahh the good times
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah somtimes
HOwdy im MEg HAn: lol
HOwdy im MEg HAn: im surprise i didnt make u like shave for me
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahah
ROckERbEbE182: u prolly wanted to ask
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahyaa
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahaha

HOwdy im MEg HAn: we're gonn truly b best friends forever

ROckERbEbE182: geeez i knooow man at the rate we're goin we like are obsessed and wanna make out and like be druggies together
ROckERbEbE182: we have done it all to some level
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahah yaaa
HOwdy im MEg HAn: oman we're crazy! i love it! and we're only sophomores i cant wait till senior baby! ROckERbEbE182: geez i knowHOwdy im MEg HAn: shit its gonna b off the hook
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahaha
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i never say that
ROckERbEbE182: hahaa good dont say it again
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahhahaha i wont trust me
ROckERbEbE182: yay i plan to be super slutty!HOwdy im MEg HAn: hello thats our rep we have to live up to it
HOwdy im MEg HAn: we're the SLUT BUNCH!
ROckERbEbE182: true true
HOwdy im MEg HAn: people prolly think we're like the bigest sluts ever
ROckERbEbE182: we should have a rainbow party
ROckERbEbE182: haha
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahahahah thanks for changing the profile now people r gonna htink im a dumbass
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahaha

sophias profile:HOwdy im MEg HAn: omg ur a fucking GENIS!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: take out the G and it spells PENIS!
ROckERbEbE182: meghan it is G-E-N-I-U-S

aLways have to steaL mY kiSses frOm yOu

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 06:25:35 GMT

this is why i love sOphia!

ROckERbEbE182: hahahaha yaaaaaaaah so ne ways do u have all the plans figured out for tomorrow
HOwdy im MEg HAn: yah im soo excited to see my daddy!!!
ROckERbEbE182: yahhh i am excited for u!@
HOwdy im MEg HAn: im soo in love with the postal service!
ROckERbEbE182: o man see i knew u would like them they are bomb
ROckERbEbE182: we are sooo alike its kinds like im u and u are me
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah ya we always were
HOwdy im MEg HAn: like serioulsy sophia that day wen u made me go with u to tell daniel that u didnt like him likeidont know i knew we'd b best friends forever, i guess there issomething about telling a boy that he has no chance in hell with u that bonds 2 people together!
ROckERbEbE182: AHHHH OMG MEGHAN I KNOW U AND ME IN MIDDLE SKOOL WAS SO CHILL WE WERE THE HORNY REBELS WHO WERE OBSESSED WITH PARKER!
ROckERbEbE182: dammmit i fuckin miissss u soo much
HOwdy im MEg HAn: omg i know!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: uh SOPHIA I NEED U YOU'RE LIKE MY FUCKING HORNY LESBIAN DRUG THAT I JUST CANT LIVE WITHOUT
ROckERbEbE182: ahh i dream for the summer cuz i know that if i get to see u everyday no matter what we do i will be content
ROckERbEbE182: cuz i love u so much and u mean everything to me
HOwdy im MEg HAn: same here! no sophia im obsessed with u
HOwdy im MEg HAn: u are my best firned in the whole fucking world and u will b forever and ever and fucking fuck forevewr
ROckERbEbE182: maannn we will have sooo much fun this summer!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: shiiit ya
HOwdy im MEg HAn: its gonna b off the HOOK NIGGA
ROckERbEbE182: omg i am like havin sex attacks and it is driving me crazy!!!
ROckERbEbE182: i neeed to get some soon
HOwdy im MEg HAn: u need it! hahahah
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i'll fuck u!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i'll take care of those urges
ROckERbEbE182: member when u told me once u hook up u have to continually...well u were f'in right
ROckERbEbE182: pllleeez do
HOwdy im MEg HAn: lol see wen it comes to sexual things im always right thats the only thing im smart in
ROckERbEbE182: hahah yes i know
HOwdy im MEg HAn: fuck everything else
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i should go to pOrn ** schOOL
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i'd b valedictorian
ROckERbEbE182: yesssss u would pass with flying colors
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hhahah yes yes of course
HOwdy im MEg HAn: but anway
HOwdy im MEg HAn: wat did u do 2night
ROckERbEbE182: nothin i stayed home and watched the oc with my best friend Tappioca
ROckERbEbE182: it was such a good episode
ROckERbEbE182: i hung out with blake today
HOwdy im MEg HAn: tappioca pudding
ROckERbEbE182: and tomorrow i am goin to the beach w/ randall, max, mikael and jamie
ROckERbEbE182: yah i am OBSESSED!!!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahaha ur crazy!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i love u sophia!!!
ROckERbEbE182: whhhy hah
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah idont know becuaes u are

ROckERbEbE182: u are a crazy addict
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i know!
ROckERbEbE182: u have to go to sexual rehab
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hhahahahahahahahahah

HOwdy im MEg HAn: sophia i love you!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: just had to tell u tthat!
ROckERbEbE182: i feel cool cuz its like undersround
ROckERbEbE182: i love u more!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah ya im sure u do
HOwdy im MEg HAn: no u dont!
ROckERbEbE182: ummm yah
HOwdy im MEg HAn: umm no im sorry WHORE i love u more!
ROckERbEbE182: u dont know what ur talkin bout
HOwdy im MEg HAn: yes i do1 im smarter then u!@
HOwdy im MEg HAn: at least im not in DS!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i got to christian school and play soccer for a christian school im a good virginal girl! O:-)
ROckERbEbE182: wtf DS is sooo bomb
ROckERbEbE182: u are in HS
ROckERbEbE182: home school;
HOwdy im MEg HAn: unlike u you skank,whore, hoe! dick sucker!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahahahha

ROckERbEbE182: ummm wrong info cuz thats u
ROckERbEbE182: yeah and i am seein name taken too at chain
ROckERbEbE182: have u heard of them
HOwdy im MEg HAn: yah
HOwdy im MEg HAn: im jealous
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i hate u

HOwdy im MEg HAn: i hOpe you die u skank!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: haha remember in math
HOwdy im MEg HAn: we'd always be like would u cry if i died
ROckERbEbE182: hahaha i wouldnt
HOwdy im MEg HAn: would u cried if this person died
ROckERbEbE182: oooo yeah!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: ahahah rmeber would u cry if leif died
ROckERbEbE182: haha
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah HELL NO!

ROckERbEbE182: hahahah ummm yah thats stilll stands to today
HOwdy im MEg HAn: hahah yes of course!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: i hope that creeper dies and goes to hell
HOwdy im MEg HAn: wiat not hell becuas then wen i die that means i'l b stuck with him!
ROckERbEbE182: realllly whyyy
ROckERbEbE182: hahaaha!
HOwdy im MEg HAn: haha idk im just kidding
ROckERbEbE182: OOOOOOOoo000 i se
HOwdy im MEg HAn: lol

dOnt u feed my lies of some idealistic future

Thu, 15 Apr 2004 06:14:01 GMT

well i've been doing alot of thinking, about everything. when people said that your teenages years would be hard (but some of the best years of your life) they were fucking right!

well lately it seems like disapointment is lurking around every corner and everything is fucking falling apart.i mean i dont want to throw myself a pity party but i guess thats what im doing. but who the fuck cares because this is my LIFEJOURNAL and i can write whatever the fuck i want to write.! so there! but ya idont know i think i just attract drama, like my life is just DRAMA but watever because im used to it. uh fuck it i dont feel like bitching right now i will later

always have to steal my kisses from yOu

Tue, 13 Apr 2004 00:49:17 GMT

so im having a pretty good time here with my mom and brother. adam and i are getting along ok i suppose, i dunno tho, he fucking pisses me off sometimes! argh! its just really makes me realize why im happier in denver. i mean i MISS EVERYONE IN CALIFORNIA so much, and well duh i miss california itself, but i have a life in CO now, and its a pretty good one. i have lots of good friends, and i always have TONS of fun! hahah good times <3 im going to miss my little brother soooo much! he is soo cute! i'll pOst piictures like 2morrow or something... nOw i gotta go pack, uh sucha biitch!!!

PARTY @ my hOuse this saturday, call me fOr the details.

go baby go baby

Sat, 10 Apr 2004 01:56:59 GMT

ok well its been fun here, im happy to see my family, especially my little baby brother!! he has gotten so big! i'll have to pOst some picture 2morrow or something... well im making easter coOKiies! yum!!!!

id send the pain below

Thu, 08 Apr 2004 06:44:57 GMT

ok i took your advice Jack! i went to photobucket.com so this better work if not bitch @ me again! lol <3 hope you enjoy!!

YOU GET TO SEE SEXY MEGHAN!!!

**SUndaY niiGhT**

<<<ii was goiing for that naughty schoOL giirl pOrn star LoOk>>>

::: LeSLiE wiiTh my maRshmeLlow jaCket haHhah Love yOu sOo manY goOD tiiiMEs ahHHH :::

nOt the greatest piicture but a piicture... gone.. hahaha

the neXt morning i know i look fine, but sooooo hungover and exhausted 3 hours of sleeeep!!!!!